Sure, I made a lot of stuff that I think looks like shit. I made some stuff that I thing is outstanding too. I don’t say, “look at how far I’ve come”, I can still make a poor drawing. I’ve seen poor drawings from all of my heroes. On a good day, I could give a fuck. Was I in it though? Was I present and honest?
Making art is a balancing act, balancing act and artifact. There is art in the action and there is the artifact, the record of the act.
Ultimately for me, right now, I am more concerned with enjoying the act. I almost look at it like athletics, I’m only looking at the tape of the game so that I can be better at the act later, so that I can enjoy myself more and perform better for the audience.
…and for the record, one of my best works isn’t even in print anymore, hahaha. I look at those books more like, “woah, look at what I survived. I can draw a book and not starve or totally loose interest halfway through.”